Carrie Smith, my notebook you made for me a year or so ago is now full of my writings/drawings of cats. Since there is no more room to write in that, I have decided to use tumblr as my notebook for the night. In addition, I know that only a handful of people read my tumblr anyways so I don’t mind. Anyhow, today was graduation and the final track meet of the season. I didn’t get to compete in the meet which was very very difficult for me to watch especially since two of my closest teammates finished their throwing careers today. With that, the future of my own throwing career is very foggy, who knows what my path looks like? I hope for the best but must prepare for the worst. Don’t get me wrong I will do what I can and try my hardest to continue to throw no matter what the MRI shows, because I have so much more I want to and can accomplish. However, the worst case scenario is hard to keep out of my mind. That is why Carrie and Haylie have received so many phone calls this week (CAMPING? RLY? haha jk), because it scares me to know that the dream I have worked for since I was a freshman in high school could soon be taken away from me. However, after some thought I realize that no matter what happens, javelin is not what defines me, it may be a huge part of my life but it is only a small part of who I am. I don’t know what my future holds, but I do know that I have friends and family like the triforce that will always be a huge part of my life and who have helped me become who I am and who I will be.
I can’t wait to see you guys!
